Hey You! Yeah You!
Little messages for you. And you. And you too. From me.
Complications
Although I’m hurt, sad, angry and disappointed right now… I hope you keep trying.
No guarantees… No promises… But it’s not impossible.
I’m terrified. But I don’t know what it is about you that makes me want to hang on to that sliver of possibility. Of hope. Of this.
If you truly believe in this, don’t give up.
Best of You
I miss you a lot.
I’m still in disbelief sometimes that I can never call or text or see you again. That you’re really gone.
Your memorial was beautiful. So much orange and colors in general all around, I know you wouldn’t have liked everyone to be too gloomy. I was the first to stand up and speak, did you know? I didn’t really have a prepared story or words to say… And after I sat down, I knew there was so much more I could say. But I would’ve gone on forever because there are just so many amazing memories with you. This world won’t be the same without you, my friend.
I was vacuuming the other day and in the middle of it, I just lost it because reality sunk in again. It’s been a little over a month since you’ve been gone and you’re in my thoughts every single day. I can’t even begin to type everything I feel here heh.
Your cousin told me that you would talk about me the most when you were still around heh. I’m truly honored and am glad to have been able to be there for you, though I don’t think I could match how much you’ve done and been there for me. You’ve gone through so so much but were always willing to still give and give. You’ve touched so many lives and I’m so happy to see so much love and support for you.
Thank you for letting me be your friend, your sister, sometimes your mom, and in your life. You’re truly beautiful and inspiring. I really miss and love you. I hope you’re resting easy now, girl.
Thank you for everything.
Sometimes…
Oh well.
Fuck you, asshole.
I’m so thankful to have you, dear. Your love and support have really helped me so much, I can’t even begin to explain. Insecurities and stresses are probably always going to be a part of me, but I’ve never been so comfortable and happy with someone. Thank you thank you always for your patience and reassurance. It means the world to me.
I love you.
I want you.
Only you.
And I hope we can spend the rest of our lives together.
Please don’t give up on the future. For the us you say you’ll work for… I really hope it won’t be all talk. I believe in it. And I believe in you.
We can make this happen.
To succeed and live a comfortable and happy life together… It’d be amazing.
I believe in us.
And I hope you always will too.
This is…
To him
To her
To my love
To my enemy
To them
To this
To that
With love
With hate
With spite
With pain
With self
With insecurity
With sympathy
With everything
For now
For later
From before
From after
From whenever
And whevever
These little secrets, words, pictures and more
Things I’ve wanted to say
To shout
To cry
To thank you
To curse you
To appreciate
Or forget
That could mean a lot
A little
Everything or nothing
That I wish you knew before
That I hope you can realize
That maybe you’ll discover
Someday
These little messages about anything
To anyone and everyone
And you
From me.
Welcome.
